3 posts tagged “jahaila”
Ohhh, I am so not on when I shouldn't be. Because I fucking pwn you at ALL HOURS, bitch. >DDDD Ohhhh, no. Definitely not on at one AM on a school night. Heavens, no. (Why on earth would I do such a thing to myself? That's bad for your health, you know.)
I actually stayed up this late doing soemthing I should've done over the course of several days and should've focussed on earlier instead of RPing with Fuji, but c'mon, it's Fuji I couldn't say no. But no I decided to do it all tonight and make fucking crazy jumps in logic. ...it's also technically an extra credit project. Yes, I'm choosing to over achieve this year. SHOOT ME.
I shouldn't have spent this much time on it but...I mean, I don't watch The Closer for no reason. I love stuff like this - I love 'whodunnits'. But I want to get them right. (I work really hard on them.) I want to be like Brenda and been keen and clever and super!intelligent and bag the bad guys. (I'm not, so I have to settle for being moderately intelligent, and try and figure it out to the best of my ability when I have the time, and after the fact. It's a pity, really.)
As it is, I really should have spent this much time on it, because now it's going to be hell to get up tomorrow, and I have that fucking chemistry test in the morning and I haven't studied for it, and that's the only class I'm bordering on an actual B in, which pisses me off because that's the class I've been spending the most time on. GRAWR.
I hope Mari's there tomorrow, but we are so out of synch that I really don't know how much that'll affect. We really need to start communicating - I know she's good at doing these things on her own (really good, amazingly good) but I want to help. I'm a club officer...I want to be in on it too. And we need to talk about Club Week tomorrow. Like, really seriously. Like cut the anime short kind of serious. We're talking serious, bitch.
My braces aren't so awful. I'm getting a canker sore but that's because I'm an irresponsible bitch. <3
As it is, I don't think I'm going to get to go to the concert next Tuesday - the Ani Difranco one. I really, really wanted to go, but I promised Mom that my grades would be all As...and they're not. One A and the rest are high Bs. It really fucking sucks, but I didn't pull through like I said I would, so I don't think we're going.
I'm taking Patsy to Homecoming, Jahaila. I have the pass and I'm going to get it to her before you do, and then she'll have no choice but to come with me which is good because I'd want to be giving her the ride there anyway. In your face. >P
...and now, I'm going to wash my face and go to bed.
Fuck.
I'm sweating like...well, no, not a pig. Pigs don't sweat - did you know that? They have no sweat glands. None. (Kind of makes the whole 'sweating like a pig' gesture seem warped, doesn't it...? I really wish I sweated like a pig. Then I would stink. Which I do, by the way, whether or not you think so. I fucking reek.) I can't stop moving though. I'm restless and listening to pirate music - what else would I do...? I mean, I can't help being restless. Pirate music gets me riled, and I'm pretty much in hell right now. Well, almost.
And in other news, Jahaila is being a bitch. I don't know why. I really don't. Maybe she thinks that now, since I actually know something about her, I'm a threat to her survival. Maybe she thinks that since she's stopped trying to hide the stupid things, it's okay for her to act like a paranoid attention-deficient-hyper-active retard around me in order to get my attention. Or maybe it was because he was there. Maybe...maybe she's just as addled as I think she is around him, totally ga-ga and acting like a complete freak. She made me want to cry. She smacked me so hard my arm turned bright red. (She smacked me for smacking her - I smacked her because she stole it without asking and I was hungry and pissed off and in the middle of hell and she had the nerve to smack me back.)
Jesus, I want to fucking kill her. She's such a bitch. They both are. Goddammit, they both are. I'm going to fucking kill them. Fucking kill them. Nasty bitches. Goddammit. How dare they make my life hell...? How dare they drag me down? It's the fourth day of school. The fucking fourth day of school. I hate them. Both of them. Forever. And I'm going to kill them. Because they are bitches. Fucking. Bitches.
I want Fuji-sama to come back. I miss her. I miss being able to totally drown myself in Oshima. Oshima is wonderful. Wonderful and far away. And there's angst there - Shisui and Itachi have issues, certainly. Certainly certainly certainly. But that doesn't mean it all goes to hell. And even then, hell in Oshima is so much nicer than hell is here.
I fucking hate them.
Now, to say I'm a bit nervous about going to school...well, it really wouldn't be accurate. I'm not nervous. I mean, at all. I'm not nervous, even a little.
By which, of course, I mean, the word nervous doesn't even begin to cover it.
Um...cramped up covers it a bit more accurately. I mean, I'm not terrified, but I'm certainly worried, nervous and otherwise very averse to going back. I mean, not dancing around nervous. Like, stomach jumpy nervous. Like, rather uncomfortable kind of nervous.
I mean, I'm sure I'll be alright. I'm always alright, don't get me wrong.
I mean, it's not like it's the teachers I'm worried about.
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...any of you who think it's funny to throw me fastballs? It isn't. If you have problems after break, I'm going to an enforce a 'we don't tell Hannah anything she doesn't need to know' code of honor for like. A week. (Think you guys can handle a dryspell that long? That means you Kate. Jahaila. Paige. PAIGE.)
Although, there is the fact that I'm older, now. In a new grade. Am not the dirt on the senior's shoes anymore...which means I have friends that are. (There is that - I'm really excited about that. I want to show you everything, Bridgett.) And, I mean. I miss people. (Scarlett. ♥) And I haven't seen or heard anything out of Mari in a while. And there's Anime Club this year. (Anime Club! ♥)
In the meantime, of course, I'll stick to worrying. (Always have been a pessimist, might as well get it out of my system.) That, and biting Tayuya's neck. (...how did that happen, anyway? Itachi is so not a Homecoming King. Queen, more like. *is stabbed*)
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In other news, I got a message from Temari that made me supernostalgic!happy. It was awesome.
